New bg .. new post..
hey ppl
im back.. yet again after a gap of some six days.. to bore u again.. heh.. or try to at least :P.. nothing much has changed since the last time ive posted.. my VIT results were also nothing to write hoime about so i'll keep away from the subject for the remainder of this post..
yes anyway.. i've finally FINALLY got my hands on an mp3 player.. and im pleased as punch.. something i've wanted for a long time.. music is the fruit of life.. and i've suddenly learnt that i have a taste for beethoven .. freaky yes.. but i like it.. only its a small twist.. steve vai on the guitar :D.. he's god.. download something of his anything ur bound to enjoy it..
getting bored .. so tell me something new i can do with this thing.. aieee on sunday.. and then bits next saturday and my major quota of exams are done :).. then its freedom i think not like its anythin else now :D.. im boored boored and still more boored.. watched chicken little.. i havent seen a more crazy movie in a long time.. the proverbial small guy making it big suddenly makes me sick to the stomach.. u kno sometimes when ur watchin one of these movies and the protagonst makes a huuge accomplishment u get that warm fuzzy feeling.. well i havent felt that in a long time.. not even the greatest of all underdog winning against all odds movie "angels in the outfield"..
i dont kno if thats a good thing or a bad one.. but its there.. who knows .. anyway life's getting a bit better these days and im glad for it.. but still always on the lookout for that kickback who knows when it'll come.... my cousins are at home for the next week or so.. so im glad.. gives me someone new to talk to..
ok i'll leave it here for now.. the new bg is here.. finally.. its taken 4 months of thot .. finalyy decided to put it up.. not that it needed much work :).. anyway .. i shall take my leave.. see ya ppl.. keep commentin
im still me
may the force be with u..
bday wishes..
HAPPY BDAY RADHIKA!!
next time we see u doin somethin like this we'll know wat u did :D :D..have a great day..
may the force be with u..
im still me
losing sense of self
The hols are going abysmally.. its hardly ten days since the boards were done.. and ive hardly managed to get an hour to myself.. its funny that despite waitin for those darn exams to get over thnkin ur gonna be free and then ur brot to the harsh reality that u got a heckuva lot more to do than u thot.. its painful the way i have class and hardly anytime off.. thot may was gonna be free thats also been fucked up..
ever felt that ur letting everyone u love and care about down.. i am right now.. made a lotta promises got bucket loads of advice and spoilt it all.. no drive no determination no patience.. major problems duno wat im supposed to do.. i can scarcely imagine wat it must be to be a small man of 5'6" walkin into a stadium iwht the weight of the expectation of the entire nation on u..scary.. just a handful of ppl and ive managed to let them down in the past few weeks.. in different ways.. and the guilt is getting to me.. ive been told ive been trying to hard .. tryin to little to sort myself out.. and not tryin to understand the problem..
confusing.. ?? HELL YES.. i dont know wat im doin myself.. trying to get my life together after ppl in my life have started moving away and are ill and struggling themselves.. that worry added to the fact that all will end before it even begins is scary... waitin for life to kick me in the balls now.. its about time.. lifes been too good to last.. cleaning out my closet of the skeletons that lie there is a very different experience.. guilty of not listening to advice.. advice taht is probably the best for me .. sadly like all thats been ever given to me.. i've havent used it as well i should have.. apologising once is one thing.. doing the same thing again and then tryin to apologise is murder.. ive done it.. and that guilt is very much alive.. im sorry u guys,, u kno who u be.. u may wonder why i've put this here.. but i've had no choice.. life's been killer these past few weeks and u've stuck with me..that means a heckuva lot.. u've laughed with me and at me.. cried with me and for me.. lost ur patience with me.. and been understanding when im bein my grumpy old self..
yes i guess i've reverted to the post of the languishing soul.. sorry to those who were expectin a better post.. at the moment thats all i can give u.. not been the best of lives.. anyway i gotta go now.. so until next time
im still me
may the force be with you..
Paraphernilia
hey all
u might be wonderin wat that headin is doin on this post.. well to tell u the truth i dont kno myself .. heck i love the word for some reason and its been stuck in my head over the past few days mayb this way itll get out :D ..
over the past few days ive found myself questioning the reasoning behind religion and all those crazy things we do to invoke god's blessings.. i dont kno bout u.. but i think its a huge waste of time.. i mean u'd think there was enough cattle up in heaven without us slaughtering them as offerings .. i mean wats the big deal .. or mayb stopping just short of killing urself stickin hooks in ur skin as if it it was bell pins into ur palm ( have any of u ever done that.?? its awesome.. the pins bit btw :P) .. or waiting in line to recieve a bit of holy water thats just prob benn colected from the tap.. yes.. its stupidity.. this aint directed at any specific religion dont get me wrong.. if all religions preach teh same thing why do the customs need to really exist is all i ask.. u want to talk with god,,, do so when u want to.. u dont need special time or a special place ....all u need to shut urself and tell that supernatural power wat u want to..
basically ive lost faith in all religion.. this doesnt mean im an atheist far from it.. i just believe that there's a god and not much more.. religion is just a means of expressing praise to that god.. pretty philosophical wouldnt u say?? well thats me all of a sudden
anyway thats a gist of all ive been thinking over the past few days... now still goin for class eatin 8 hours of my supposed free time everytime.. outta the other 16 8 goes in sleep and another hour in eating ( yes i do a lot of that ) .. now 7 hours isnt much .. 3 hours at least go in lazing around.. another hour or so in doing odd jobs and running errand for me mum and granma.. so 3 hours left.. out of which one hour is spent reading.. so 2 hours is all i can study.. hehe suits me just just fine :)..
hmmm pmpd exam today hope theyve done ok.. anyway i must go now.. i shall catch ya'll later..
see ya ppl..
till next time ...
epithataepithat .. thats all folks :D
im still me
may the force be with u
