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2009-04-30T21:45:00.000-07:00

yello folks ..

The blog has moved to here
. Please to pay the visits .

And for the last time from here

May the force be with you.

2007-03-24T06:44:00.000-07:00

another black day.. another day when the system just takes ur life and chucks it in its garbage can and then hours later remembers oh yeah i'll need that someday.. its pointless these days .. ive just lst all hope in the system. "the man".. stck it to the man?? yeh right.. all ur gonna do is get somethin stuck where the sun dont shine.. theres just no point.. im sick off it.. living itself has become such a pain.. my friends have slowly wandered away .. as i have from them.. some stuck on .. some pretend they're still there,, some try to make it seem that they never knew.. some have found greener pastures.. moved on to wat they say is a better life..
but thats wat they say.. everyone moves on.. i have..

a year ago.. i was a happy person.. i didnt care wat happnd to me... or how the system screwed with my life.. i was in a new place.. just about settling in.. then it hit me.. really hit me.. the people who saw it dont kno how i made it outta the pile of junk that remained of my car .. lived in hospital for 4 months after that.. and i felt alive after soo long.. finally i was out of the grey world that was my life in hospital.. finally i could sleep in a bed that wasnt steel below the many matresses .. and not look at the same scenery out the window.,.

i felt..well ALIVE.. i needed to try somethin new.. something different.. somethin the old me would never have dreamed of doing.. so when i was at the pary i wasnt supposed to be at and that anonymous hand slipped a joint into my hand it was just natural that i did wat i did and went took a long drag.. from then there was no lookin back.. i guess im in over my head.. spoilin my own life.. but who gives a fuck anymore.. u have only one life man.. live it while u can.. u never kno when that drunken driver is gonna crash into u.. and take u outta action for a half a year..

soon that bcame all i was living for.. the chance to get high.. find my place in this world and enjoy meself.. no worries ... no guilt.. no blame.. no tension.. and no worries ... sigh sometimes i miss that feeling.. i really do.. today i woke up in hospital again. the same grey walls the same metal bed.. why?? i found sleeping pills gave me the same buzz and they arent illegal.. the rehab place warned me.. but hell i thot who gives a fuck.. one .. nothin.. two nothin.. six.. nothin.. got to ten.. and finally peace .. i took two more for good measure.. my parents found me almost dead.. rushed me to hospital.. and here i am..

is it worth it? heh i donno.. back to rehab is where im going.. i hate wat this is doing ,, all im tryin to do is be happy.. guess being hapy means satisfyin the rest of the world.. heh..

hey..

im back.. depressing one i kno.. cant be helped.. AND NO.. it is not autobiographical.. so no worries..
anyway i leavs.. exams ahoy..
see yas..
as always
im still me
may the force be with u..

new year..

2007-01-06T21:53:00.000-08:00

hey all

its been a while but im finally back.. hope u've all recovered from the hangovers of a killer new years party.. if u didnt have one good on u!! if u didnt have a party .. hard luck.. there's always a another one.. this year both xmas and new year were a new experience to me.. coz for the first time in my eighteen years i was not with family .. this time i spent it with friends.. its was to say the least difficult.. but it also led me to think of how important family has bcome.. they say distance makes the heart grow fonder.. i choose the agree.. at least in this case.. sigh.. anyways thats new year outta the way..
new years started off with some shocks.. some good some bad.. its been a fun year 2006 and im sad to see it go.. but tis gone.. and as usual we have a new one to look forward to .. :)..

it took one marathon conversation .. to realize i've been holdin stuff inside me thats been there for ages.. and i havent let out.. stuff thats been sub consciously buggin me for years.. major relief to get it all outta me system.. owe the person at the other end of that convo loads.. thank u.. :)..
happy new year all.. hope u get all u need out of this year.. :).. .gluck to u..

may the force be with u
im still me

ps: i'll blog properly later.. assignments to do.. peace y'all..

man down..

2006-11-22T04:08:00.000-08:00

how do u console someone when they've lost a relative.. a friend.. a pet.. how do u arrange ur face .. do u smile.. do u have that expression on ur face saying im sorry man.. wish it hadnt happnd.. or do u just ponder why ur there.. ive been there.. done that a million times.. and i still dont know which is the right way.. ppl have come to me.. losing a son or a daughter.. the wars taken a lot out of everyone.. from the loved ones its taken their hearts and minds and souls.. from the troops its taken everythin.. every organ .. every cell in their body is moving towards resolving the conflict .. the question still unanswered .. is the conflict between the nations.. between the so called superpowers of the regiion.. or is it an internal battle against our conscience.. a battle over of bad against worse??

two days ago.. a late corporal's wife came upto me.. she had in her hand wat remained of a charred photo.. i neednt have asked wat had happend.. but i did.. i made it my job.. sometimes the greatest grief of a death ends when u let it out.. i felt it a moral duty to help ppl .. call me stupid but thats wat i did.. she had no tears in her eyes.. in fact she had a wry smile upon her features.. the corporal had been one of my favourites.. a hardworking young man.. a crack shot.. he had been killed a day before this meeting in rocket attack of the base.. he had died not directly.. he had died tryin to save the rest of the base.. he did.. but lost his life in the proces.. he was to be a awarded a post humous bravery award.. and given a state funeral..

his wife came upto me..she handed me the photograph.. i turned it over.. it was an early picture of the team when we had arrived at the battle zone.. evryone was happy.. all she said was. " why.. ".. i said. " that i cannot explain.. he was a brave man.. i owe me life to him.. ".. she went on.. " not why he had to die sir.. i kno why he had to die.. he died doing wat he did best.. serving the country and the ppl he best loved.. why did this war have to happen is all i ask.. why cant one man and another just get along.. " .. i didnt kno wat to say.. it was a question i didnt kno to answer myself.. with that she turned and left.. and yet again i was unsure how to react..

why does man " the smartest of all beings " do wat he does to fellow man.. i just dont have an explanation for that .. why we live in this world where colour, religion and caste make us all different.. unanswered stuff.. thats best left unanswered coz the answers will just cause more conflict..

for once in my life.. i found the need to let out emotion.. the grief of seeing so many ppl die.. the grief ive shared with their famlies.. the emptiness i've felt without a family of my own.. and found that there was noone in this world i could let it out to.. in all my life.. i'd been a punching bag.. a soundin board and a support to a lot of different ppl.. but somehow i had never let it out.. the only emotion i ever let out was in the field when i saw a partner taken out.. anger.. passion.. adrenaline.. kill the bastards who did this was all i thot.. now in an hour of need i had noone to talk to.. noone who i could hang onto to stay afloat.. except betsy.. betsy was my best friend.. she helped me relax.. saved my life more than once.. now she would help me end it..

i took her out of my desk.. the beatiful .35 revolver .. i polished her everyday.. and kept her loaded..

i've made the man down call so many times i've lost count.. ironic i thot as the barrel made contact with my temple.. never thot id be making it about myself..

hey..

im back again.. hope ur all doing good.. semester's done with .. back home for 10 days.. :) .. jobles..

as always

im still me
may the force be with u..

faith..

2006-10-22T04:05:00.000-07:00

Went to church today after a very long time... strange.. yes.. but totally new church in a town absolutely new to me .. very small.. hardly 50 ppl were there.. new to me.. coz church to me always meant a large congregation of highly devout or highly hypocritic ppl.. here it was just 50 ppl.. considerin this sunday was a family sunday my grandparents had also come down from trivandrum.. neway.. i walked in late .. and the only place was next to a wizened lookin old man in the corner.. i took it being exhausted by the long walk straight uphill.. i sat down next to him and slowly he began to speak.. surprisingly he spoke in english.. he was talkin to himself.. a soft voice.. nearly breakin with emotion.. at first i didnt pay too much attention.. then as the service got more and more borin i started listenin to him.. he seemed to be in deep conversation wit someone called johnny..i didnt disturb him.. not wantin to stop the old man and disturb his peace.. he went on about how the "thing" looked amazing and how proud he was that he could see it ... slowly he stopped talkin and i wondered wat was going on.. he just prayed .. as the family's went forward .. i noticed eh was alone .. he came back and took his place.. tears slowly formin in his eyes.. as the service i ended .. he asked me who i was .. considerin i was new at the church i gave him a whole history .. i asked.. he told me bout himself.. george kurien.. architect.. retired of course he laughed.. i asked him why he laughed .. and he said son im 95.. i was shocked.. he looked a fightin 70.. not 95.. i spoke to him for a good five minutes and then asked him where the rest of his family was.. he told me they had all moved on... it was really heart wrenchin to see this old man all alone.. but still all cheery crackin jokes with the rest of the crowd and laughing heartily with all of them.. he caught my eye and walked over.. i kno wat ur thinkin he said .. dont feel sorry for me.. when i come here im with my family he said.. i didnt realize wat he was sayin so i nodded and smiled.. i left shortly after and went back to the hospital .. as i did my rounds for the day i was buzzed to the ER.. runnin there.. i was shocked to see my patient was noone other than my bench mate at church.. i tried everythin i knew to revive him.. but there was nothin i could do given his condition.. he died that night.. as i covererd his sheets that night.. i saw a message scrawled on a piece of paper.. at least now i dont have to go to church to talk to u it said in small neat font.. and i couldnt help but smile.. family sunday yes.. recollections .. and reunions.. wat more could one ask for.. :) ..

hey

im now home.. kattapana... close to thekkady... which is close to munnar that is in kerala.. its a quiet kerala town.. but it has broadband .. :).. hehe.. happy diwali to all of u guys.. happy ramzan for those who read it on the day.. :)..

im still me

may the force be with u..

a first...

2006-09-26T08:57:00.000-07:00

hey..

this post comes to u direct from the digitial library in vit.. a first post for me from here.. so wheres the applause... :P... has been good cupla months here.. barrin the bouts of homesickness and the other wat nots of gettin used to college life.. i think i've finally managed to settle in .. again i say i think...

kno loads of ppl here yes.. some from earlier and bcome closer.. some grown apart.. but all in all having a blast.. classes are irritatin( which ones arent) .. life is gettin montonous.. joined all sortsa societies and clubs and god knos wat else.. did some quizzing.. some crazy stuff .. som craazier stuff in the dorm.. and some crap in the exams.. lets not talk about the last bit.. got another set from tuesday..

i kno its been a while since ive posted.. so pls visit oh honest and loyal friends of mine...india lost.. man u drew.. this seems like its gettin very monotonous.. :D.. anyhow ppl i take my leave.. i seee the digital librarian gettin very angry :P.. thats wat they call him.. dont blame me :P..

as always..

may the force be with u..
im still me

dusting off the blog..

2006-08-27T01:52:00.000-07:00

heyy ppl.

im back.. after aaaaaaages.. two whole months have passed since my presence on this blog has been seen.. two months is a long time .. and i have done a lot in that time.. gotten closer to soo many ppl and further away from others.. living life to the max.. hostel life is awesome.. especially when u have ur own room :).. the foods great .. at least to me.. but i'll eat anythin so that aint saying much.. made a bunch of friends in college.. lots who i knew and kno better now.. and some who i didnt kno at all but through some tough times have got close to.. :).. all in all vit is a blast and im enjoyin most of my time there.. first place i think where i've actually enjoyed exam time more than normal clas :) .. hehe..

to those of u who dont kno.. bunkin classes is routine.. u need to maintain a 75% attendance in every subject .. so by some calculations we have made the followin chart of bunakble classes every 5 weeks .. or as they call it in vit a CAM..

phy - 4
chem - 4
eng - 4
ed - 2
math - 6
history - 1
comp sc - 1

as u can see thats a lotta periods .. and hence we can make most use of it :) .. also.. we have only 5 hours of class a day.. so it aint at all bad :) .. only sad part is we work on saturdays...

now back to matters of home.. im sad to say that as of the 15th of september .. i shall no longer be a resident of the city of chennai.. my parents are shifting to munnar.. to those of u who dont where that is .. wiki it.. shall miss the city.. lived here only for 4 years.. but they were a blast.. i shall be coming back to the city once in a while.. but never to stay longer than a cuple of days.. :'(..

on a happier note :).. man utd's winning.. :D.. hehe and chelsea is losing.. aaaand i can finally watch some games at least at college in the hostel :D.. coz there is no need for these bloody set top boxes.. :D..

right ho.. keep visitin once in a while old chums ..

till we meet again...

im still me

may the force be with u..

the last twenty in chennai

2006-06-14T22:19:00.000-07:00

heylo ppl

as u may or may not kno.. im destined to join the Vellore Institute of Tech ( VIT ).. this means that on the 3rd or 4th of july i shall be packin bags and baggage and shifting to the hostel there.. chennai, my home for the past four years .. the best four thus far shall be replaced by the township of vellore.. a huge move for me.. but as they say dont count thine chickens afore they hatch.. this just could be the best thing that has ever happened to me..

anyhoo apologies for not posting in over a month.. have been busy with trips and catching up on things i hadnt done in a long time .. like going to church for one... its funny .. going to church that is.. for one .. it can be a very enblightning experience.. both on the mind and on the pocket.. what with offertory ( rs 20) .. special offertory coz the 4th was my bday ( rs. 500 ) .. all for the cause of salvation ( priceless... ) :D.. anyway this week half the crowd was asleep.. i wouldnt blame them.. the sermon was highly boring.. i was unaffected btw coz im used to loong and boring chem classes.. :D..

the week previous to last ( or last last week :P ) .. a bunch of us went on a trip to wayanad .. roughly 30 of us trekked , rapelled, travelled , sang, screamed, slept and kept our fellow passengers awake for 5 days.. one of the best trips i've been on and one of the last oppurtunities where ppl from my batch could really have fun together.. twas worth the money payed and the begging of parents to go on the trip..

anyway im 18 now.. imagine that .. me a major.. LOL.. hehe i already was a major pain in the ass.. but now im legally one.. so hooray for me.. last task now is to get a lisence..

alrighty then ppl until next time which i promise will be sooner i take thine leave...

im still me

may the force be with u

Song ..

2006-05-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

The lightning express from its station so grand has started on its way.

all the passengers that were on board seemed to be happy and gay

but one little boy who sat by himself was reading a letter he had

you could plainly tell by the look on his face the contents of it made him sad..

the stern faced conductor then started his rounds

taking tickets from everyone there

finally reaching the side of the boy

gruffly demanded his fare

"I have no ticket" , the boy then replied ,

"But i'll pay u back some day ".

"Then I'll put you off at the next stop we make "..

but he stopped when he heard the boy say ..

please ,Mr. conductor

dont put me off this train..

the best friend i have in this world sir

is waiting for me in pain

expectin to die any moment sir

and may not live through the day

i must get home and kiss mother goodbye

before god takes her away..

im not sure of the rest of the lyrics so i wont put em up.. its a song i learnt as a kid.. there is one more stanza which has a happy ending in case ur wondering.. :).. thot it ideal for the time around mothers day.. yes i kno sad song.. but wonderful.. dont kno who its by or which era its from .. just stuck in my head these past few days.. anyway have nothin much to say.. the heat is killer .. so are entrance exams .. but the heat is worse.. practically living in a controlled climate.. ( in an ac room.. im in the mood .. bear with me).. driving classes from monday how awesome is that.. hopefully a language class wil also start this week..

right ho .. enough said

i'll catch u sometime.. use sunscreen!!

im still me
may the force be with you..

New bg .. new post..

2006-04-27T03:22:00.000-07:00

hey ppl

im back.. yet again after a gap of some six days.. to bore u again.. heh.. or try to at least :P.. nothing much has changed since the last time ive posted.. my VIT results were also nothing to write hoime about so i'll keep away from the subject for the remainder of this post..

yes anyway.. i've finally FINALLY got my hands on an mp3 player.. and im pleased as punch.. something i've wanted for a long time.. music is the fruit of life.. and i've suddenly learnt that i have a taste for beethoven .. freaky yes.. but i like it.. only its a small twist.. steve vai on the guitar :D.. he's god.. download something of his anything ur bound to enjoy it..

getting bored .. so tell me something new i can do with this thing.. aieee on sunday.. and then bits next saturday and my major quota of exams are done :).. then its freedom i think not like its anythin else now :D.. im boored boored and still more boored.. watched chicken little.. i havent seen a more crazy movie in a long time.. the proverbial small guy making it big suddenly makes me sick to the stomach.. u kno sometimes when ur watchin one of these movies and the protagonst makes a huuge accomplishment u get that warm fuzzy feeling.. well i havent felt that in a long time.. not even the greatest of all underdog winning against all odds movie "angels in the outfield"..

i dont kno if thats a good thing or a bad one.. but its there.. who knows .. anyway life's getting a bit better these days and im glad for it.. but still always on the lookout for that kickback who knows when it'll come.... my cousins are at home for the next week or so.. so im glad.. gives me someone new to talk to..

ok i'll leave it here for now.. the new bg is here.. finally.. its taken 4 months of thot .. finalyy decided to put it up.. not that it needed much work :).. anyway .. i shall take my leave.. see ya ppl.. keep commentin

im still me
may the force be with u..

bday wishes..

2006-04-20T11:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAY RADHIKA!!

next time we see u doin somethin like this we'll know wat u did :D :D..have a great day..

may the force be with u..
im still me

losing sense of self

2006-04-12T12:22:00.000-07:00

The hols are going abysmally.. its hardly ten days since the boards were done.. and ive hardly managed to get an hour to myself.. its funny that despite waitin for those darn exams to get over thnkin ur gonna be free and then ur brot to the harsh reality that u got a heckuva lot more to do than u thot.. its painful the way i have class and hardly anytime off.. thot may was gonna be free thats also been fucked up..

ever felt that ur letting everyone u love and care about down.. i am right now.. made a lotta promises got bucket loads of advice and spoilt it all.. no drive no determination no patience.. major problems duno wat im supposed to do.. i can scarcely imagine wat it must be to be a small man of 5'6" walkin into a stadium iwht the weight of the expectation of the entire nation on u..scary.. just a handful of ppl and ive managed to let them down in the past few weeks.. in different ways.. and the guilt is getting to me.. ive been told ive been trying to hard .. tryin to little to sort myself out.. and not tryin to understand the problem..

confusing.. ?? HELL YES.. i dont know wat im doin myself.. trying to get my life together after ppl in my life have started moving away and are ill and struggling themselves.. that worry added to the fact that all will end before it even begins is scary... waitin for life to kick me in the balls now.. its about time.. lifes been too good to last.. cleaning out my closet of the skeletons that lie there is a very different experience.. guilty of not listening to advice.. advice taht is probably the best for me .. sadly like all thats been ever given to me.. i've havent used it as well i should have.. apologising once is one thing.. doing the same thing again and then tryin to apologise is murder.. ive done it.. and that guilt is very much alive.. im sorry u guys,, u kno who u be.. u may wonder why i've put this here.. but i've had no choice.. life's been killer these past few weeks and u've stuck with me..that means a heckuva lot.. u've laughed with me and at me.. cried with me and for me.. lost ur patience with me.. and been understanding when im bein my grumpy old self..

yes i guess i've reverted to the post of the languishing soul.. sorry to those who were expectin a better post.. at the moment thats all i can give u.. not been the best of lives.. anyway i gotta go now.. so until next time

im still me
may the force be with you..

Paraphernilia

2006-04-01T09:58:00.000-08:00

hey all

u might be wonderin wat that headin is doin on this post.. well to tell u the truth i dont kno myself .. heck i love the word for some reason and its been stuck in my head over the past few days mayb this way itll get out :D ..

over the past few days ive found myself questioning the reasoning behind religion and all those crazy things we do to invoke god's blessings.. i dont kno bout u.. but i think its a huge waste of time.. i mean u'd think there was enough cattle up in heaven without us slaughtering them as offerings .. i mean wats the big deal .. or mayb stopping just short of killing urself stickin hooks in ur skin as if it it was bell pins into ur palm ( have any of u ever done that.?? its awesome.. the pins bit btw :P) .. or waiting in line to recieve a bit of holy water thats just prob benn colected from the tap.. yes.. its stupidity.. this aint directed at any specific religion dont get me wrong.. if all religions preach teh same thing why do the customs need to really exist is all i ask.. u want to talk with god,,, do so when u want to.. u dont need special time or a special place ....all u need to shut urself and tell that supernatural power wat u want to..

basically ive lost faith in all religion.. this doesnt mean im an atheist far from it.. i just believe that there's a god and not much more.. religion is just a means of expressing praise to that god.. pretty philosophical wouldnt u say?? well thats me all of a sudden

anyway thats a gist of all ive been thinking over the past few days... now still goin for class eatin 8 hours of my supposed free time everytime.. outta the other 16 8 goes in sleep and another hour in eating ( yes i do a lot of that ) .. now 7 hours isnt much .. 3 hours at least go in lazing around.. another hour or so in doing odd jobs and running errand for me mum and granma.. so 3 hours left.. out of which one hour is spent reading.. so 2 hours is all i can study.. hehe suits me just just fine :)..

hmmm pmpd exam today hope theyve done ok.. anyway i must go now.. i shall catch ya'll later..
see ya ppl..
till next time ...
epithataepithat .. thats all folks :D

im still me
may the force be with u

once more..

2006-03-26T07:56:00.000-08:00

heyy all..

im back,.. surprising aint it.. havent blogged twice this close together in ages.. guess i cant really help that.. anyway wats new.. since the last time i blogged india's lost a test match so hopelessly that i've lost all hope.. i've started time classes in a batch with no company.. i've had a mock aieee which i've done horribly.. honestly i wonder why i try.. i've sent out 500 messages.. yes 500.. awesome number wouldnt u say..

anyway major boredom nowadays .. its cricket in the morning then coming home and trying to wake urself enough to get to class sit there for 8 hours .. then get back home and come online ... then sleep and repeat the same crap over and over again.. but there are these rare days where u can watch a movie or two and read a book ...

cant live without the ac these days .. its bleeding hot.. its like sittin in a permanent sauna... never known good old chennai to be so humid.. reminds me of kerala.... doesnt help that i have more than a justified quantity of blubber on me..
think i shall post some pics today .. this was the place where i've spent most of my short and really pointless life.. its called kotagiri and is about 30 kms from ooty.. for all those ppl who have been there( not likely ) u'll agree that is an absolutely beautiful place..

the pics will come at the end of the post.. right now.. i think im outta ideas.. its 31 posts with this one.. yes faaar behind the rest .. who cares not me.. anyway probably will be easy way to stay in touch with the rest of u idiots who actually spend time readin the blog.. i appreciate it.... done some crappy things in the 4 days of hols i've had.. actually sat and organized all the pics i have stored in wierd locations all over my comp.. madness.. now together with my music and videos they occupy an entire drive .. :D

hehe.. ive managed to stay in the top 20 in india at fantasy premier league.. more than enough fer me .. first time ever ive done this well.. watched a loaaad of movies in the past few days.. ate loads of popcorn and drank a lotta juice.. ahh who cares..
my motto always is and alwyas shall be eat drink and be merry for tomo i shall diet .. heheh..
yes now my mood has steadily improved during the course of this blog.. always a good sign should blog more often.. much to ur horror ..:P

anwyay i go now leave u with these pics

adios amgigos..
till next time

im still me
may the force be with u

its done.. its done......... yeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaa.

2006-03-24T04:26:00.000-08:00

heyyy all

i am finally an ex student .. of skl that is..:D.. finally all that supposed slogging is done.. and i am free.. oh wait.. wats that .. aieee classes..?? 8 hours a day.. are u mad..?? nooooooooo........... damn it.. have to do it.. argh.... i hate it when these idiots come and tell me.. " hey macha .. i saw that awesome movie yesterday" i hate them i hate them..

oh yes... i am getting a new phone.. yipee.. finally.. been askin for one for ages..
now sitting joblessly.. have no real idea how to spend my time.. of course its cricket in the morning and hog the rest of the day but still dunno.. dont think that'll work everyday.. soon be the size of a small killer whale then.. :D.. sorry for the quote..

oh yeh.. yesterday was the last and final exam of the boards.. at least for me it was .. went to the beach after.. it was totally awesome.. great fun.. dinner at planet yumm awesome fun it was.. got home and slept like a log.. havent slept that well for ages.. anyway after that refreshing nap got up and slept again.. this was all at 6 in morning so it was permissible..

now i go to take some movies and drown myself in them.. and popcorn of course .. :D
:D.. and a litre of real guava juice.. :D ahh life .. anyway.. the box office i call my tv awaits.. see u all
till the next time

im still me
may the force be with u

the end is almost here.. and for once i cant wait

2006-03-17T02:17:00.001-08:00

yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss................ chem is done.. screw all u chem teachers whove treid teachin me. yeee haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......... im so freakin hyper .. its been a while since a NON - ANGER post :).. dont blame guys .. i didnt ask them to make exams.. finally.. only comp sc left and then its freedom sweet freedom.. cant imagine not wearing a uniform again.. at least i hoep i dont have to..

hmm... after an impossible victory at the wanderers south africa is struggling in the tests... man utd is at the top of its game and chelsea is sturggling they r just winning by luck and everyone knos it.. thats it for the sports update...

hmm.. bio students are for once in their sad lives lucky.. they r done.. the luky idiots.. ahh.. they r free well at least till their entrance..

anyway any one who can tell me how i can kill time till comp sc .. other than the daily requirement of a cupla hours of comp study will be rewarded.. yes im not kiddin.... and if some dumb ass says work out ur board papers i swear i'll find u and murder u..

the boards have been pretty good.. really happy with performance much improved from rest of the boring things we write to please the teachers in our skl and waste paper on..

rite.. i think i shall take me leave now.. have said all i have to.. will catch u soon enough.. see ya ppl

may the force be with u

im still me

aaaaahhhhhhhh screw the bloody world

2006-03-12T03:32:00.000-08:00

u ever had those times when evertything u do is wrong??? well im goin thru that kinda phase now.. its such a pain in the freaking ass.. so all im saying is screw the world .. since when has it ever been fair.. just when life seems to be goin ok .. it kicks u in the ballz..

SO U EVIL THING CALLED THE WORLD .. SCREW U..

may the force be with u
im still me

one down a few to go...:P

2006-02-01T03:57:00.000-08:00

heylo ppl

comp sc is over and done with :D:D.. the pracs went sooper cool.. it helped that we had a really nice external.. she asked really easy viva and was overall very sweet during the entire pracs.. yes in case u havent already guessed im soooo happy.. just hope rest go as well..

anyway india just lost.. not that i didnt xpect it as soon as akmal hit that century to spoil our fun .. but still its sad.. well played pakis..

hmm now im jobless dunno wat to do.. so i blogged.. think i shall spend some time ont he latest craze and a discovery i made a while ago.. its called stick cricket its a must see for anyone who likes cricket or is utterly jobles and doesnt blog or just has .. :)..
ive been having visitors from the states and canada.. heya folks.. welcome to the blog.. hope u had a good time.. but guess considerin that the blog is decidedly "indian".. but hope u keep visitin it is a small world after all..

yes preetika no more memory posts for a while.. but got the farewell comin up in a cupla weeks thats gonna be fun.. last year we hosted ... god it was a tragedy.. literally.. we were supp to be a spoof on julius ceaser.. oh my..
wat a tragedy.. the script was awesome.. the cast was the best ive ever seen.. ( what can u expect wen u had me cross dressin :P...) u can check out the script on antarius's blog... it was his script btw.. applause ppl applause..
anyway.. with so many things right wat u may ask went wrong?? well the audience.. ahh .. it was bad..
anyway we payed them back.. made the guys put make up on each other.. holy crap that was funny.. just hope that dont happen to us :O... :D...

hmmm wat else wat else.. cant think of anythin to be quite truthful.. bored to pieces ... me thinks me shall go visit the world of quake.. great game btw.. for those of u ponderin thats the altest game thatll work on me system .. :P... anyways i need to scram..

im still me
may the force be with u

the script can be found at Antarius script
have fun..

and then it was over..

2006-01-27T02:19:00.000-08:00

hey ppl

im back... with one more exam that will be evaluated by the our teachers left.. the major subs are over and an abysmal performance in chem im lookin forward to a relaxed weekend afore comp sc.. I WISH.. with board pracs round the corner im runnin helter skelter for projects and records ... ahh its absolut madness y do u have to write out the freakin procedure for a stupid complex u never even prepared in the lab coz and i quote " not possible with avaylabul resources.. "

lol.. anyway our days are at skl can be counted on fingertip now.. 5 at last count.. will i miss it? heck yes.. the rush at the canteen.. eatin chinna samosas ahh heaven.. lunch raids and snacks raids and genrally food raids .. ( ok in case u havent guessed i love food :D//) , the football, the friends, the lame jokes, the general chat, the obsessive football and cricket discussions.,.. heck yes .. but then there are things that i dont wanna remember .. but are the ones that most probably one will carry thru out life.. skl was great.. mayb college will be better but definitely best memories in my short 17 years..

hmm cricket is truly bein a bore.,, at least the india pak series.. i swear.. the high point of that match was dhoni bowling :D.. vb series is much more int.. lankans showin class and fightin hard thank god fer that.. and jayasuriya's back yeaaaaahh!!!

now i was askin a couple of ppl wat i should blog about .. so one response was wat id rather be doing than studyin here goes nothn
1. goin jeronimho off the back of a cargo plane
2. bein ball boy at the aussie open
3. bein ball boy in pak
4. be at the star wars exhibit in singapore
5. be in singapore
6. be six months in the past.
7. be online all the time

yup thassabout it.. this list didnt include places like the states and other exotic destinations thats for another day and is another story

right now im pretty pleases with the world and happy to be alive( for once) ../.. rang de basanthi's released.. anyone who's seen it please mail me the story.. songs are pretty good..

right now ppl i gotta scat.. so ill be seeing u around dunno when dunno how.. anyway

im still me

may the force be with you

its me ..

2006-01-16T04:45:00.000-08:00

hey ppl

how u been doin.. i've been ok.. the new year has started off pretty well.. at least better than most years have.. im still havin exams.. in fact had 6 exams in 6 days last week.. bad u say? well its the same schedule this week as well which makes it funny that i'm online ... strange u say?? well i've adopted Peanut's blabber strategy and its workin pretty ok .. :D..

yeh yeh.. i kno.. u bein boring old self.. rejuvanate ... replenish and restore.. thats me motto.. so this year its gonna be more of the same .. sorry to dissapoint.. 25 posts down and i think i've had a heckuva lotta fun..cant complain that sometimes i've not got commented on.. but its all in the game and ... life has been boring and thus the thot comes to me to blog many a time.. and tho i can.. i dont... i wonder why.. another one of life's mysteries..

yep now to the sports update.. india i mean sehwag is blasting away.. they were going at 5.655 runs an over.. and to those ppl who have not watched the news or read the paper or listen to your friend s talkin bout it ITS A GOD FORSAKEN TEST.. not five one day matches.. man.. 4 centuries fer the pakis and 2 fer us already// its scary to think of the consequences .. wat happ to the waitin game.. damn.. its almost no fun anymore..

yes its also harvest festival season and while ppl in the south of TN are having the indian version of a rodeo.. ppl are dying of cold and starvation in pok.. and jammu.. yes.. happy pongal/ bhaisakhi / makar sankranthi / bihu / ugadi heh..

ok ppl i must go now.. phy pracs tomo and must go start on record or else im dead..

im still me

may the force be with u

the great star wars comedy..

2006-01-03T08:57:00.000-08:00

For Star Wars fans out there...laugh it out loud:

A furious light sabre duel is under way. DARTH VADER is backing LUKE
SKYWALKER toward the end of the gantry. A quick move by Vader, chops
off Luke's hand! It goes spinning off into the ventilation shaft. Luke
looks round, but realizes there's nowhere to go but straight down.

DARTH VADER: "Obi Wan never told you what happened to your father."

LUKE: "He told me enough! He told me you killed him!"

DARTH VADER: "No! I am your father!"

LUKE: "No, that's not true! That's impossible."

DARTH VADER: "Search your feelings; you know it to be true."

LUKE: "NO!"

DARTH VADER: "Yes, it is true and you know what else? You know that
queer brass droid of yours?"

LUKE: "Threepio?"

DARTH VADER: "Yes, Threepio, I built him when I was 7 years old."

LUKE: "No."

DARTH VADER: "Seven years old! And what have you done? Look at
yourself, no hand, no job, and couldn't even levitate your own ship
out of the swamp."

LUKE: "I destroyed your precious Death Star!"

DARTH VADER: "When you were 20! When I was 10, I single-handedly
destroyed a Trade Federation Droid Control ship!"

LUKE: "Well, it's not my fault."

DARTH VADER: "Oh, here we go. 'Poor me, my father never gave me what I
wanted for my birthday, boo hoo, my daddy's the Dark Lord of the
Sith...waahhh wahhh!' You make me sick."

LUKE: "Shut up!"

DARTH VADER: "You're a slacker! By the time I was your age, I had
exterminated the Jedi Knights!"

LUKE: "I used to race my T-16 through Beggar's Canyon!"

DARTH VADER: "Oh, for the love of God, 10 years old, winner of the
Boonta Eve Open. Only human to ever fly a Pod Racer, right here baby!"

Luke looks down the shaft. Takes a step toward it.

DARTH VADER: "I was wrong. You're not my kid. I don't know whose you
are, but you sure ain't mine. Get out of my sight, you loser!"

Luke takes a step off the platform, hesitates, then plunges down the
shaft. Darth Vader looks after him.

DARTH VADER: "AND GET A HAIRCUT!"

lol no time to blog ppl so will leave with this.. haha.. :D..

may the force be with u..

Its a new year...

2005-12-31T18:17:00.000-08:00

heyyy

how have u guys been?? merry xmas and a happy new year to all of u guys.. its been a while since i'd been able to blog and turns out i didnt til the turn of the year.. yep..

new years well spent.. hung out with friends till 12 30.. it was amazing to watch the fireworks go off at the stroke of midnite.. this is prob the last new year we all have to look forward that involves school on the second.. and the last time we could all hang out till the boards.. yeh.. its seems such a long time back since i joined skl but its only been a year and a half.. a year and a hal where i've done things i would never have imagined myself capable of.. i may have complained about the year 2005.. im sure i have.. it has been a bad year.. but every cloud does have a silver lining and for me that silver lining has to be the bonds that have been strengthened in the year,,

this year 2006 is prob the most important in all of our lives.. it is also iu last year in school.. i dont kno if im happy bout that or sad.. but i kno one thing i am definitely gonna be glad to get the boards outta the way.. with only 2 official working days to look forward to i hope they go well for all of us..

righto no other inspiration at the moment.. cant think of anythin worthy of posting.. not even an episode of visitin the barber:P... see ya ppl.. have a great one this year..

all i can say is

im still me
may the force be with u

man's best friend..

2005-12-15T06:08:00.000-08:00

peculiar aint it.. man's best friend ... the dog has a perfectly capable brain.. it can make perfectly logical decisions for eg. when to cross the road .. or call us when it wants to its business and the like ... yet they chose to stick around wit us.. humans who though we show our love and affection to them are mostly preoccupied with other things and hardly spend time with them.. this is where cats have learnt a thing or two and make us earn their affection.. but dogs ever loyal .. ever faithful and always cheerful have their way of cheerin u up even when ur most depressesd or most lonely..
my dog Sandy died last night.. yes i kno it may sound ridiculous to dedicate a post to a dog .. but this was my first dog.. my first best and most loyal best friend.. and in all aspects a sister..

She was my first friend.. being an only child it does get lonely.. especially when ur living in a place liek kotagiri.. where most of the time the cable is out and theres not much else to do .. it was at times like this when ur alone at home that sandy made u feel good.. she'd come and lie on your lap and curl up there.. it was nice ..
gave u a sense of someone being around and added to that an added warmth it was after all 2500 feet above sea level..always lively there wasnt a better dog.. a lhasa apso and pom cross she was the cutest dog i kno tho im sure every dog owner says the same...

all of a foot and a half tall and with bushy hair.. that most times stood in a punk she was a friend when i needed one .. and a great football partner.. :D.. its times like these id like to rememebr.. the fact that i hadnt seen her before she died hurts ... in fact its been almost two years since i saw her last.. but she's been around since i was six.. my first bday present after i came back from moscow ...so i doubt that at any pt of time she'd be erased from my memory.. anyway very emotional moment for me..

anyway this post comes to an end here... i dont kno wat to say..
im still me
may the force be with u

hello world...

2005-11-23T06:12:00.000-08:00

hey ppl

wats happenin?? yes like gaya im also all ticekd .. and i know exactly why ...

do be considerate and weep with me when u hear the hours in spent in the following classes...

chem- 2hrs
math- 3hrs
phy - 3 hrs

wat a bloody pain in the ass man .. i swear... oh yeh i also got tagged by hobbes-
so here goes

7 things i plan to do

1. pass 12th hopefully
2. kill george bush
3. buy man utd and share with sid..
4. watch a cricket match in chennai..
5. win 10 games in yahoo pool
6. be supreme ruler of all monsters
7. kill myself..

7 things i can do

1. eat anythin edible...
2. eat
3. did i mention eat??
4. sing in the bathroom... ( well at that)
5. be the most boring person on Earth..
6. make fun of gaay ..
7. go into bouts of depression

7 things i cant do

1. stop eating
2. stop blogging
3. give up music or the comp..
4. stop talking..
5. think positively..
6. kill myself ( not yet anyway)
7. stop reading blogs ...

and i aint gonna tag anyone its too painful and i'd rather save them the trouble..
and yeh ppl i have got a tag board.. so pls pls tag once in a while..
and yeh man utd rox.. watevr whoever says... dont listen to dhruv about the hp movie or man utd ....

so till later then ppl .. see ya .. too tired to blog more .. apologies..

im still me

may the force be with u..

another monday another holiday.....

2005-11-06T23:14:00.000-08:00

hey guys

its me again,... wat u were expecting mayb superman?? nah... just plain old me... i ve realized that there are a lotta non psbb bloggers visiting this site so hiii to all of u hope ur enjoying urselves as well on this clear sunny day that our skls decide to give us holiday on ... hehe u kno somethin?? i havent been to skl on a monday in three weeks... muahahaha so no white uniform and more importantly no embarassingly swallowin fas in chem pracs..hehehe yes neon and gaay i did it too,.. dont rub it in i beg of u... coz it just wasnt a little it was about 7 ml worth... now back to the not goin to skl on mondays.. the reasons for that would be

being on train in kerala...

diwali hols yaaay

pointless waste of sittin at home

yep so ... indias lost a match finally ... the law of avgs catching up u say?? well i cant hear u... coz theres no way they are gonna take this sittin down... great batting by dilshan tho... amaazzing... but dravid and gambhir rewally stole the show.. at one pt loked like we would cough hiccup and wheeze to 250 .. but then mr.reliable ( im sorry to use it but he is) dravid steadies the ship and takes a hundred with him... played brilliantly,.. its nice to se sreesanth and rp singh .. good to see juniors in the team.. finallly........

but there was another bit of sporting glory this time for the boys at Manchester United... and that thing is that MAN UTD BEAT CHELSEA ..... EAT THAT MOURINHO..... yeh .... it was a great good morning present for me... considerin i didnt see the match...FLETCHER U LIITLE BEAUTY... this is a huuuuge win and prompts me to sing one great song... those who kno it can join in now... GLORY GLORY MAN UTD!!!!... GLORY GLORY MAN UTD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

yeh im hyper now...... its amaazing,.. man utd win ... we get holiday... ganguly is outta the team... .. im in the top 20,000 in premier league,. yeh it dont get much better than that.... yeeeeeehaaaa... yes ok... now ppl i kno ur all experts at handlin colds and tackling boredom so im gonna need some advice on both .... leave ur comments in the comments... and ppl form places other than psbb keep visitin and keep commentin ... the bunch who comes here just looks and goes... its sad...

anyway ,,, 11 days to go fer harry potter,... just saw the premier in london on tv... the luky dawgs ,....
i shall leave now...
goodbye all
im still me
may the force be with u...

holidays of light....

2005-11-01T02:54:00.000-08:00

im back .yep YAAAAYY.. finally say some.................. (oh gods no say others but i dont care about that)... hehe
soo wats been up.... u musta prob got the low down on how we got 7 days of hols from "the preshus"... so i wont bug with that... wat have i been upto?? well now thats a different ball game...

thursday ::
no current.. disaster or so i thot... it was pretty coool... i managed to find some old letters and had a blast readin them... also found old noddy's ... woo hoo never knew that somethin that lasted twenty odd pages could be such fun:D:D:D. then called everyone i knew and bugged the hell outta them..( at least the ones who picked up the phone...) and then slept for a joyous 11 hours ... oh yes 11 HOURS,....

friday::
this was a liitle more boring... i studied a bit in the mornin and had class in the evening... boring day.. it was spent laffin at school fer giving us a hol on a clear bright sunny day... still laughing muahahahahahahahahahah........ shows when ur evil the rain gods are eviler...:D..

saturday::
most boring day of the hols... day was spent eating sleeping and online... no class so just basically sat and read mails and thot about bloggin .. clearly writers block hasnt left me yet... then again slept well ... rare thing these days so i keep mentioning it..

sunday:
things got more interestin dads at home so gotta go out ... hogged the whole day ... in the nite had staek and some of the most brilliant cheesecake ive evr had the pleasure to eat.... durin the day went past most of chennai searching for the perfect scalpel for me dad... brfore u get any ideas ... hes an eye surgeon so...lol.... had u scared there didnt i!ehehe...

monday::

this is DHONI DAY...wat a match wat an innings... ppl who havent ever watched cricket have watched it... and ppl who watch cricket were shocked ... to see the indian team basically maul a lankan side that i have personally great respect for... but sadly they were treated like lowlifes... has left some sceptics shoutin match fixin but theyve been drowned out in the celebration of Dhonis diwali dhamkha... thats wat i did the whole day.. watched the entire match apart from the bit i missed when i was in skl fer spl class... and then watched the rerun of wat happened bfore i got home... and then dhonis whole inning...

i bot and read chetan bhagats new book .... i'll reserve jusgement on that one... someone read it and well share ideas,,, it was a bit unbelievable,... but yeh... hmm
soo anyway im back.......... and im prob back fer a while ... its gone.. the writers block that is.,.. not the brains... :D
so till later im back
and yes
im still me
may the force be with u...

yeh yeh im back ........

2005-10-06T06:06:00.000-07:00

heyy all

im back again after 6 days of hols i havent had more fun in a loooooooong time. listenin to love will keep us alive pretty neat song . but nothin compared to hotel california, man thats a brilliant song. havent met anyone who doesnt like the song... if u kno someone pls tell me. itll be the first person who doesnt.

its been a fun week movie on monday. salaam namaste.... pretty decent that is if u leave ur brain at home. true time pass..... javed jaffrey with oztrylian accent kept us rollin in our seats as much as saif ali khans pink wardrobe.,.......
lol ... egjactly .....

then on tuesday was our project demo at skl . Gk and me were excuse the language shittin bricks coz we had no idea how much our prog was gonan fetch us. we neednt have worried Gk did a wonderful job of explainin the intricacies of the program and i did the job of the pointless geek sittin in front of the comp pressin keys to make to darn thing work... the fact that Gk had an exam that day didnt make it any easier...

wednesday .... went to abhees house for lunch and to watch the super(blade) series... my god it was booring, nothin interestin after the first ten overs.... much was expected and a it was a big let down.... mauling if i ever saw one .......

thursday was spent largely in anirudhs place where we gave gaay a surprise cake .... best part is it almost didnt work but finally did thank god for that... played fifa 05 wat a game i tell u ...... and then table tennis goood fun....
sadly this is the end of the fun and games for now coz i got to get started on the hol hw our teachers have so lovingly*blanches* set us..... bleargh is all i can say.... considerin the fact that the exams didnt go so great i think its time i really put me head to it , and rub my nose raw on the paper...

but till the 12th im gonna enjoy myself.... no depression and no tension ..... i think i hope i pray......
another brilliant song now ... wonderwall.... simply amazing,..... dont kno y but suddenly i have this affinity to acoustic songs ... its so amazin to see there are sooo many songs that can be played only usin the acoustic guitar .. for example the all time classic rock song" nothing else matters" and even the bohemian rhapsody ....

for now i shal go ... gotta scoot to class... like gaay said no inspiration to blog bout anythin ineterestin this week.. guess the interest levels increase when we have skl gives us more to crib about i gues... u might have to wait fer skl to open fer the next blog... .

till then sayonara...

may the force be with u

im still me

finalllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyy freeeeeeedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! think...

2005-09-30T07:27:00.000-07:00

hello again yall . welcome again . exaaaaaaaaaaaams r ovvvvvvver. ffinallllly . may not have gone so well but hey they r over after all . :D:D:D:/

now me thinks that i shall not bore with u with my regular posts . seeing that no one evr comments *pokes everyone cept gaay and antarius* . i shall not bother u ppl any further with life stories i shall just post crap.

now something that shall show u how most mallus get their wacky names. so here it is never thot id say this but im going back to my roots .

Subject: an educational and inspiring guide on how to name your kids as if you were a Mallu Christian
Statutory warning: If you are not South Indian it might be pointless reading further
Extra Statutory warning: If you are a mallu with the pride of Kerala in your loins DON'T read any further

It has been a well kept secret for eons, shrouded in mystery and mazes of deceit, but finally Itty Boben Jacob Elias Kuruvilla from Pazhookaville, near Thelmasherry, Kerala has consented to let us publish this classified mallu formula, on the naming of mallu christian kids.
1. Select a combination of both the mother and fathers names.
Eg: Suresh and Sharon = Susha or Joseph and Beena = Jobi.

2. The addition of a 'mon' (meaning son) or 'mol' (meaning daughter) is optional.
eg: Sushamol, Jobimon

3. To attach a modern anglicised feel to the names, the mol or mon can be replaced with boy or girl.
eg: Jobiboy, Sushagirl

. 4. For the politically correct keralite family, mol and mon can be replaced by the universal 'kutty'(child), which can be used for both boys and girls!
Eg: Jokutty, Susikutty
Even parents having combination names can still give their children suitable names
eg: Libi and Jobi = Lijo

However, in the scenario where the parents already have combination names that cannot form more comprehensible child names.
Eg: Itty and Amukutty,

would produce only Itam (which doesn't even sound like a name) or Amit (which is like Northie and stuff!!!!),

then a. use an English word like Baby, Merry, Titty, Pearly, Smiley, Anarchy, etc.

b. use a combination of two English names that you think sound cool (but never cool enough) like Meredith + Gina = Megi, or Sharon + Darlene = Sharlene
c. Use a name from the Bible (and not Nebuchadnezzar! Use one that even velliammachi can pronounce!) like Jacob, Sam, John, Joseph, Mathew, or Jijo!
d. Use a name that sounds like a cuss word but isn't. Eg: Boben, Prussy, Shagi, JustinTimberlake etc.
Note: The use of the letter 'j' is useful in the naming of sibling where names that sound alike are a novelty.
Eg: Ajji, Sajji, Majji, Bhajji and Nimajji, or Sijo, Lijo, Jijo, Anjo, Panjo, Banjo.

lol now wasnt that fun??? lol now a joke that could classify as shruv level but only mallus will get it i fear.

Q. What do you call a mallu kid who sticks his nose into other people's business?

A. Pokemon!!!!!11

yes and to all those who visit my site and dont comment keep visiting makes my day. :P

bbye all nothin to say extremely pissed off

may the force be with u

im still me

the barber and me ..............................

2005-09-26T09:06:00.000-07:00

yes ppl im back? miss me? i bet not. anyway back with daily dose of humour and grief from my sad existance .
anyway todays blog is simple. the visit to the barber.,,,,,,

it all started back in 1988 when i had my first haircut. (not that i have much hair on me head but it does grow pretty thick. ) anyway back to first haircut. the guy cuttin my hair was clearly more interested in either watchin the olympics or watchin the road coz he duly proceeded to the followin and i mean to a 6 month old kid .
1. cut off too much hair from the top that to make up he had to shave me bald.
2. snip me ear. ooooh i bet he has nitemares about doin that, i screamed and kicked and scratched and bawled so much that my dad who was holdin me( obviously they didnt havea chair that fit me:P) has his arms bleeding in plenty of places. finaly the guy managed to finish and decided ok lets carry the cute little baby. so i thot to meself( or at least i must have :P:P) PAYBACK TIME and proceeded to puke on him.:D:D:D:D/

now y u ask do i have this sudden recollection?? well i went fer a haircut on saturday . and yet again YET AGAIN the idiot managed to snip me ear. yes it bled fer a while and he freaked and nearly fainted. not coz of the amt of blood but at the number of expletives i directed at him in the three minutes that followed and i was holdin a cotton piece to me ear. anyway he finished and then took the blade to finish the job that is on my non existant sideburns . no im not balding . but i have a decisively small sideburns . so ok he does one side properly then moves to the other side. im givin him beady eyed glares from my place in front of the mirror anyway then he moves to the back of my neck,. and i think he thot hed gimme some of my own medicine and cuts sooo deeep that now the back of neck is bleeding . but i knew none of this coz my mind was distracted with sushmita sen in main hoon na ( he plays it splly fer me on his 1989 tv) oooooooooh lalalalalalalla.

anyway i get up pay the dude his 50 bucks and got the hell outta there after givin him a hasty apology .:P/ i still didnt kno my neck was bleedin so i get back home and check my new haircut out int he mirror and notice a faint red stain on me shirt. shit i think not on this shirt not blood pls not blood,
and it is . a nice stain, but thankfully it left no marks on my neck just bled and died, hehe.neway another abnormal incident down . and blog no 16. finally. never thot id make it past 15........
will c ya after xams are done
may the force be with thee
im still me

lol boooredom impersonified

2005-09-21T02:42:00.000-07:00

you must wonder y im on durin my exams well its coz of a simple philosophy called "the one exam down bliss". also the fact that im boored outta my mind helps. uneventful week this one , i even considered closin the blog down but im still around and lived to tell u the tale of blog no.15. finally. blogging has bcome less and less frequent over the past few weeks and i apologise to all those who visit frequently. dont kno wat to type today so

im gonna leave with me bio data just in case someday u make a speech about me or introducin me at some function lol ( not at all likely just boored so lol )

biodata

name: vishal kuruvilla thomas ( yes.... distant relative of abhay)

dob: 4th june

place of birth: madras.

home town: trivandrum

languages spoken:
english , tamil,hindi, malayalam, also russian ( tho lackin old vocablulary)

Places of residence :

madras,india
moscow, russia
kotagiri,nilgiris
chennai,india
schools:
1. kotagiri public school, kotagiri, nilgiris.
my first school. joined the school in the 1st standard. was here till the end of ninth. ie from 1994-2002. regular member of school quiz team and doubles district shuttle team.

2. chinmaya vidyalaya, annanagar
joined here in 2002 after completin 9th in kotagiri . repeated 9th standard here as i was a year yung fer tenth and had just shifted from kps and did not wanna join the tenth directly in a new place. was teh spl in tenth (won elections by some freak of nature) . and then passed out of tenth in 2004. member of skl football team.

3. psbb , main

joined in 2004, in 11th . computer science group. member of skl football team . still awaitin any other accomplishment .

thats all i can think of right now. i shall add to this at some pt of time in the future as and when i manage to get a degree or bcome indias youngest president or watever. lol . fat chance of that .

ahh yes another update of my premierleague.com dream. im now in the top 100 thousand. yaaay. 84,007 to be exact. . manchester united what is worng wit thee?? two draws in a row. ?? ahh well at least it aint a loss like arsenal. this season belongs to thee show thy pride cmon u reds !!!!

in the mean time , indias playing zimbabwe and to be fair to the africans mauling them. not much has come out of this except provin that india isnt as bad as zimbabwe. sachin is out fer the next few weeks so it looks like curtains on sachins career . something ive been sayin since the tennis elbow appeared so prominently.

anyway i must go now. gettin tired of typin . and to all those who read htis please comment. last weeks coulda been named " dont comment" and i think i might have got more comments.

see yall at some time in the near future . may the force be with u .

im still me

back again......

2005-09-16T04:57:00.000-07:00

hey all

sorry i havent been posting as often as i would like to but i have cousins at home and since they dont kno of this blogs existance id prefer they didnt. evil aint it? but when ur cousins are young and inquisitive id rather it be this way. so how u all been ??
shout outs to
sid: glad ur postin mate make it more often

shalin : visit me once in a while please

shmolly: hey mail me.

gaay : hehehe im eatin m'n'm LOL

choo : ty ty fer changin the colours on ur blog

antarius: fer askin fer more posts and postin some good pics.

yeh thatll do fer now i guess. :D

yes pretty much been a very uneventful week . had tests . lots of them. tuitions stopped till my exams r over so thats amazing, and cousins over the entire week. hmmm.dinners ben out evryday . this generally implies i dont get lunch in the afternoon which means im stuck with canteen food.
gettin food from the canteen is a very enlightenin exprience. one they made the window so high that gaay and co have to jump to reach it. hehe. also it teaches u the value of non verbal swearing. :D. yes this involves pushin the person in front of u out of the way. its also the only place where ive seen ppl actually cheer when the ice creams are made available, its much like the TN parliament . one person claps and then the rest of the group also start the mayhem.

yes yest was onam. and it comes with onam sadhya yeh!! oh yes its my day in more ways than one. those of u whove seen me eat will kno y. but yes i had a blast and ate and ate and ate and ate and then took a break to do math and then ate some more . so it was pretty much the feast i so thoroughly deserved. yes this means im a mallu . lol just in case anyone had any doubts.

today was an ok day ,. went to see triennial project at tp road, twas fun only didnt really see much . saw mostly videos of dunks at the games dept. also watched ryan giggs run half way down the pitch with ball and score and also the "SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEARER " goal. then came to skl sat thru math and slept thru chem and the had ga, where again i slept. but some words i must say need mention
1. patriotistic
2. coo coo cwo ( yes those were the exact words)

lol yes wat is the world comin to. ........ yes now fer an update on me fantasy football . im languishin down in 250,321st place . sad aint it? yes i have degraded . :(
ok i must leave thee now . . i gota go now got comp pracs to study fer sadly she has and nevr had a sense of humour so :( . bbye fer now

im still me

horror of horrors....

2005-09-10T01:48:00.000-07:00

the green monster is back!!!!

yes im back. apologies to all those who have been visiting me daily to see if somehow i had updated .
first and formost i have got to thank the ppl who have so graciously advertised both me blog and the review of reverbs 2005. thanks antarius and gaya u just increased traffic to me blog. :D:D . also all ppl who have commented thanks a bunch.

luky blog no 13 and i have nothin to say. this week was pretty uneventful cept fer the fact that we got a holiday bang in the centre of the week so it was nice.

that reminds me tuesday was the young world quiz in which i unknowingly participated. the organizers i think forgot to tell us this year it was the "YOUNG WORLD INDIA QUIZ FOR MATRIC SCHOOLS ". i mean seriously . nearly every question in the prelims seeemed to be have been lifted from a tenth standrad matric text book. so our plan to overcome this ?? we participate next year as sons of zion matriculation hss. and our uniforms u ask?? pink shirts with purple pants. not only wil we qualify fer the finals. well win the damn quiz. with our sparkling and shiny new uniforms. yes nabil aj and sid i think we shall looks like our only hope as long as the organizers resort to crude methods of getting new schools on stage. this year itself was horrible with three unherd of skls( not takin any credit away from them ) but still i mean cummon.

anyway the rest of the week was fairly ok . had lotsa fights with friends so have to apologise to them. so that kept me quiet most of the week . yest was fun tho. not durin skl no . but after, went to gagothree and hogged . with the rest if the idiots. good fun, special mention to the snorter. u kno who u r. hehehe.

lost a relative this past week so i thot of a poem i had written ages ago lying somewhere . i just found it yesterday on my msn space. anyway i wrote this poem in jan i think , lotta of u have read it some havent. so just check it out . leave a comment bout wat u think about it. even if u thik it sucks .
MY LIFE
how i wish i could fly
not even a day goes by
where i wish i was some one else
yet i am accursed to live in this body

a tribute to the heavens
is that it gave such a wonderful family
a part of my worldly existence
yet a bond that is almost divine

life was bliss
until deaths fatal kiss
made for a sad existence
in my life of peace

then i leaned on my friends
who without any hook or crook
let me past the bad and into the good
for that i thank everyone of them
to leave this one person to the end
is a sin in itself
but i couldnt think of anyone else
who fit the description
last but not the least
"who is this person", you ask me
the answer is simple
the answer is god
a person who to me is formless
the same to all of us
without any change in his nature
is secular to us all
yet why do i fear my life
when i have such great people to live with
its because as one and all tell me
i have no self respect
do i deserve what i've been fortunate enough to get
or am i just on of those few
who are trully blessed
the answer is not mine
to find the answer i need all
of what god has given me
friends family and a place i can always call home

peace ppl ill catch yall later.

till then

im still me

reverbs review

2005-09-02T22:23:00.000-07:00

hey all
DAY-1
yes ar rehman came yahooooooooooo. it was unbelievable. as the paper quoted it the next day " as soon as the students saw the familar curls they went into a frenzy!" a frenzy that reverberated till the two day event was over at the karnataka sangha. kudos to rehamn he came on time on the dot to be more presice despite workin all nite on one of his multiple projects and he didnt dissapoint. he gave us reason to shout and scream with a rendition of "dil se" which was brilliant. ganesh and kumaresh the guests of honour were over shadowed by his very presence but they reminded all of us that they were around with a superb bhajan duet. the host perfomance of alai payuthe and vande mataram was brilliant and VED the man fastest man on drums this side of chennai set the stage on fire with a drum solo.
we started off slowly with lite music and then the message board came to life. basically the message board was the life of the party . but the party was in the hands of DJ ASHOK and he handled it in pretty much as well as ronaldinho controls a football.

yes now back to message board,. its basically wat u get when u give three wise guys ( in this case antarius, anirudh and vignesh ) a computer and a big screen and allow them to type wat they want on it. for example anyone who came to the fashion show will remember "the ashram"s show. the comment from the message board you ask?? " india shining!!" lol lol. some brilliant jokes and puns kept the mood in the karnataka sangha audi good and had the audience spell bound most of the time. the dj did a gret job and the small battles betwn the dj and the message board were well appreciated by all./

in the mean while a whole load of competitions went by with multiple winners , vm, bvm and cv doin most of the winning. lite music was over and done with that left JAM(this is where the msg board had the most fun) , folk dance, another solo by VED , ship wreck (won by the probably the smallest kid in the hall bruce lee his character was) ,apart from currency design , punch line among others. the day ended early fer once, so we had time to practice the host fashion show . and i like several others was very interested to kno wat was the plan. little did i kno i was gonna be part of the plan!!

yes u read right !! vignesh was nowhere to be found so me of all ppl was asked to sub fer him till he couldbe tracked down(shoulda been hunted down like a dog in my book :P) , so yes i unknowingly walked the ramp. yes me stop gasping in surprise. !!:P :P. anyway the dj changed the entire routine so i was left wonderin "OH CRAP !! WAT IF VIGNESH DOENST TURN UP WAT THE HELL AM I GONNA DO??" but fer once i was lucky coz just as i was thinking this thot appears vignesh. and i was safely back to me place in the stands watchin . ahh now that was more like it.
got back home went fer class ate slept. thassal fer reverbs day-1.

DAY-2

YES it was finally time fer western music . the most awaited event at revrbs 2005. and it didnt dissapoint, after an amazin host performance comprisin of all time greats like "enter sandman","smells like..." and "i stand alone" the crowd was goin wild.
as if that wasnt enough on came VED and KIRAN with a brilliant duet . then the drummer went in to hyperdrive and it was all u could do to keeep ur head bangin at about the same speed as the bass drum reverberated the sweet smell of sucess to the host perfomers.

then we had the chance to witness 3 gods. prithvi from vm on the drums (he gave ved a run fer his money) , shreyans from shishya on the guitar( slash junior the message board called him ) and ajay rao from lady andal on the sax!! these guys just blew the crowd away and all three got standing ovations. then the judges performed and we realized y these ppl akshay chakrapani , krishna, kk and sujan are called gods of the gods. wat a show!!!

the next event was the quiz durin which yours truly kept score . damn that was a good job and an excellent quiz . the two teams from ps walkin away with the top honours and one of the teams from cv the third. the quiz masters did a gret job and so did their support. varun and harish witht he computer. and the quiz masters ajay kathik, karthik balajee, thakalli, and siddharth did a sooper job and were deservedly praised by mrs. ygp. a little secret ajay had no idea wat the questions were and he just did the job of an extempore quiz master and made it look like he knew it all. heheheh

then as the day wore on we worked thru the other events such as adaptune and block'n'tackle . we also worked our way thru a huuuge supply of food. hehe.

then came fashions and the various schools put their best feet forward and miss and mr revrbs decided . all the while the dj and the msg board still keepin the audience in hugh spirits. it was good . it just got better wehn the hosts performed. a performance appreciated even by the chief guest of the nite the comedian vivek.

after the prize distribution all the tired volunteers and most importantly the cul secs and the spls of both skls (kkn and nungambakkam ) have somethin that will resonate in their minds for the rest of their lives , but fer now its back to the books and the grindstone after 10 days of amazing fun, serious hard work by the organizers both student and staff and a lot of tine quarrels and a bucket load of new friends made . just wish we could have anothter one at some pt of time with the same bunch . wishful thinkin? hell yeah!! :D:D.

anyway i must take thy leave now , must continue to reminisce......

see ya later

i leave thee with quotes from the msg board

art thou deff dj??
finally some real music!!
india shining!!
lite sponsors of reverbs - the ashram
sucess is 99% perspiration ( a crack to the djs comment on body odour)
wearing your dancin underwear today??
hes not invisible hes just short!!

lol lol

anyway bbye

im still me

its finally here yahooo!!!!

2005-08-30T18:10:00.000-07:00

REVERBS.........
yep its finally here . weeks of hoping and dreaming about it have come to an end .
all this wouldnt have happened at all had our maths teacher had her way. her 70% cut off rule was vetoed by the teachers thankfully and we all got to go despite a pretty miserable mid term exam. neway reverbs is startin today at the tp road school.
one of the things that amazed about reverbs is the amount of work given to the students to themselves, which i think is a ns extremely good idea. considering that we r after in our last year if school and soon to be out in the so called big bad world .
ok bfore i start soundin too much like me dad i'll talk about somethin else . like football .
yes finally the epl and the primera liga have both kicked off. this ends a drought of good quality football . but considerin the fact that all the football i can watch at home is "the 1998 (i was 10 fer petes sake ) confederations cup!!" on dd . oh joy !! i can actually watch uae vs australia wheeeeeeee.
anyway im playin this fantasy premier league thing on premierleague.com . and god m far behind the competition but hell im ranked in the top 5000 this week!!! yeh baby . 5000 doesnt seem like much . but when there r 500,000 ppl playing i think thats pretty decent.
man utd all the way this season. ruud , rooney, sun, ronaldo , scholes and ferdinand are in all superb form . and nothin not even the blatantly obvious fouling of cristiano ronaldo by the entire newcastle team can stop them. muhahahahahaha . and chelsea ur going down this year. i mean u struggled to beat WIGAN.( my current second favourite) . lol it took 94 minutes to score i pitty thee.
anyway man uts rulz and chelsea sux! and speakin of suckin so do the aussies!! cmon england wat a royal mauling at trent bridge . !!! finally the aussies are bein put in their place.
anyway i shall leave thy presence now , see thee soon, may the force b with u
man who goes thru airport door sideways is going to Bangkok..
Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
Stand on toilet, get high on pot.
Support bacteria -- it's the only culture some people have!
Man who eat jellybean fart in technicolor.
Man who speaks with forked tongue should not kiss balloons.
He who sitteth on an upturned tack shall surely rise.
Even the greatest of whales is helpless in middle of desert.
The hand that turneth the knob, opens the door..
Man who sneezes without hanky takes matters into his own hands.
He who eats to many prunes, sits on toilet many moons.
Man who drop watch in toilet bound to have shitty time.
Man who fly plane upside down have crackup.
War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.

adios amigos
im still me

tis been a while

2005-08-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

hello all

the green monster returns , hehe. has been a while and im sorry to keep all the regular fans waitin. wait a minute wat fans lets count ummmmmmm 1.gaaay.thats it . has been a horrible week . marks were as dreadful as i expected so not much to say about that. incidentally thats the reason i havent blogged this week . simple logic really . no net or bloggin till u show some inprovement. thankfully i had a test in tuition which i managed to ace so im baack!!

coupla days ago got a call me from an old friend whos shifted schools in twelfth and now is havin real problems coz the school is not exactly wat ud call normal. anyway that reminded me of my fisrt few days in psbb.

no offence to anyone but i seriosuly thot everyone was bloody mad. hehe espescially gaay (wasnt wrong there ) and shalin(here too ) and aditya and choo (here also) . anyway first day in class lunch break and gk's gon around meetin the new guys and soon he comes up to me and before he even asks me name he says" hey ur a brahmin surely" hehe ,cant say that i blam e him i had curd rice .:D:D/ little did he kno i thot smugly. anyway the next big shock came in math period, aditya and choo were sharin a private joke and lafin their heads off when aditya got caught . so hes asked to stand up and asked wat ppl who laff theit heads off fer no reason were clased
and his reply "intelligent" gave me insight into wat was to come to be known as the "ab" efect a racous laffter thru out hte class fer no specific reason . hehe . anyway i still remember i had trouble fittin in . but soon i overcame that and now proudly say i am a pssbian. hehe extremley corny ?? yes it is .

anyway gotta thank all me friends fer hangin around. tho its the last sunday of august wat i should have said on the first one happy friendship day!!

*realized after readin gaays blog i ve also hit my 10th post thanks all fer visiting* .

oh what should i be ?

2005-08-18T20:22:00.000-07:00

hey all

dont really kno wat to about . exams are finally over and that leaves with three days of pure freedom. no homework and the only thing to put us off from merry making is the prospect of marks of five subjects in one day on monday hehe. but till then who gives a damn. considerin my creativity is currently lying hidden behind some thick curtains of boredom and sleep. i will leave u all with a piece of it written when i was in the ninth. apt at the time i thot still is.

WHAT SHALL I BE ??

"You should be thinkkin of wat u want to be !!" , " Get ur priorities right !!","Hard work is the only way". oft repeated lines at home in recent times. God knows, I dont know what i want to do or become.
Profesional pro sports watcher or part time rider, a player of games or a even a full time juice and snack taster woudl not appeal to me parents i fear."always have the big picture in mind" says my dad . Easy for him to say watchin a movie and humming ' que sera sera'
but seriously, what shal i be?? dare i join the police or the army? the likes of kargil and veerappan are not exactly my cups of tea. should i take up a career in acting?? my mom already thinks my cheeks allready have make up. computers are the craze now , but the speed at which tech is develoopin by the time i finish the course i do , it may already be obsolete. hereditarily speaking i should become a doctor . but sleepless nights and extreme pressure-can my system take it?? an engineer then , tho , if wat my father says about my maths is right , what i make will be quite unique.

will i do well as a man of god?? the robe may suit me but to recollect all those verses and to remember where a particular text is , may tax my ppor brain too much.

proffesional sports sounds fun. i talked to an aunt of mine who was a national swimming champion. "tons of talent and many more years of hard work,boy" she says. I felt it is tough to decide on what i want to do in the future - how to make one's own ark in this world. there are so many options and the competition massive. should one of the periods in our time tables be career guidance?
for now , i think i will join my father in humming que sera sera, whatever will be will be !!

just for your info im still just as confused as i was then/ anyway see yaz all
comment pls

the pic

2005-08-12T07:01:00.000-07:00

this is me

yep that face up there is me. do u kno how much of a pain it is to actaully get a photo onto this thing using the crap they allow u download. let me narrate the entire incident.

it all started with me having nothin to do this afternoon, so very optimistically i thot fine lets put up a pic in my profile coz it seems to lack that . my first mistake. anyway now start lookin for how im supp to do it, so take me time. read all teh instuctions and then download the software that proclaims "hello" as if its some looong lost friend . i wish it was loong lost now . anyway now i was gettin to kno hello and then i realized i couldnt open picassa the organizin software. so i had to download all over again , second mistake.

now picassa was openin and the software was fine and stuff. so i start uploadin the darn pic this painstakin task took all of twenty minutes .coz my darn internet connetion decides to go offline on its own . anyway so i uplaod the photo and lo and behold

theres nothin on the site

so i ask my purple niece fer help. sadly despite her best efforts ther was no way i could find a way to get my pic to come on me blog. so disheartened i came offline . and in a rush of blood to the head i kileld " hello" and completely erased him from my memry.

then unsuspectingly i come back online at 7 thinkin oh well that was a day wasted. and lo and behold there are wat id been tryin for all day . but oooh no not once, not twice but thrice had the photo come . imagine that, so i go delete the other s and finally the pain of defeat and the ecstasy of victory get my pic on my profile.

so yeh now im gonna stick with that photo coz i m not goin thru the entire thing again, no was jose for the ignorant(hosay).

yeh well anyway got loads to do . time for a joke i think.

Musharaff, Vajpayee, The Queen and Rani Mukherjee are in a train compartment . the train passes thru a tunnel. now theres a kissin sound and the sound of someone bein slapped .
as the train comes outta the tunnel musharaff is holdin his face .

now everyone is thinkin of wat just happened
musharaff thinks " ah that idiot vajpayee must have tried to kiss rani and she tried to lap him but got me instead"

the queen thinks" oh dearie me , wat a brute. he must have tried to kiss rani and she slapped him "

rani's thinking " abhay oi , he must have tried to kiss the queen the fool and she slapped him "

vajpayees thinkin "" muahahaha, i cant wait for the train to go thru another tunnel . ill make that kissing sound again and slap musharaff. ""

ur welcome lol
see ya

depression 1

2005-08-10T02:13:00.000-07:00

hey all

this is yet another attempt to get rid of wats going on in me head. sorry attempts theyve been so far but its worked so i dont really give a damn . :D/

bored to death and exams are not a very good combo coz u cant justify tryin to solve either problem. thats wat i got at the moment and i aint enjoyin it one little bit. exams have started adn sadly maths was a toootal disaster and now reverbs is totally outta the window. guess i brought it upon myself not studyin and wastin time like i have . but as they say u get ur just desserts and this is definitely punishment enough for bein such a fool and wastin my life.

but life goes on monotonous as usual. officially im banned form usin the computer but this is off the recored so i dont really give a damn , im usin that a lot lately . duno y ive stopped carin all of a sudden . dunno if i should be worried or glad, anyway my moms off to kodai tomo so ill get a little more breathin room . hopefully.

i think im gonna go mad if i dont get outta my house today . gotta go outa nd think things thru think ill do that this evenin . just got back from skl .
anyway ill see ya all later
im still me

friday

2005-08-05T10:12:00.000-07:00

today was ok. bloody buggin really but had fun . had comp pracs today. as usual didnt get the program . tried and tried and tried to no avail as usual.but then again i got a difficult program so its excusable . anyway theres no pt in complainin bout it coz its over and done wit. realized somethin while doin the program. its a lot like life my comp pracs. sometimes u make it most times u dont, this was one of those times. bloody buggin life is .sittin here hearin death threats from whoever i see bout how im not studyin enough and how i need to work hard and how i need to make use of all the time im spendin online bloggin instead of studying. wat if i told u I DONT GIVE A RUDDY DAMN. to top it all off my moms threatenin to discontinue my net connexion unless i really sit and study and sadly i cant help that. so tonite me is goin on marathon study session till as long as i can keep my eyes open just to prove everyone wrong. so my next blog will prob be sometime tomo evenin if im allowed on at all. right now i have to go get started before i lose all my steam as usual.
see ya around
im still me

wednesday bleargh

2005-08-04T04:51:00.000-07:00

ahhhh yes wednesday the worst nightmare of anyone who studies in my class . wat could possibly worse than sitin thru two chem periods on the trot!!
the say started off well enough. woke up late . wait a minute did i say wake up?? thats not possible coz i dint sleep a wink . made me wonder in the nite if chinese water torture was better than goin thru an entire nite without a wink of sleep and hearin the odd lorry rumble past and the screams of the old drunkards and the barks of the dogs chasing them. yeh...........

anyway india lost AGAIN no surprise . snathcin defeat from the jaws of victory....... . ganguly is back . woe is us. woe is us. hes lucky its nearly imposible to bowl a bouncer in sri lanka .the git. he'll play his no footwork pull right into the hands of either the bowler or square leg fielder not any further than that .

oki this is slightly peculiar coz im writin all of this a day after it happened . but yeh im facing new restrictions that range from mild to death threats to study fer midterms so my bloogin will be greatly restricted at least i thikn it will be , as u can see from this blog those rules are being blatantly overhauled be moi.

but i guess i ahve to go now , have math to do and chem tuition to get to . so ill see ya ppl later ,

bbye
im still me

the match

2005-08-02T05:02:00.000-07:00

hey again

another day another month, but still teh same result. today was our football match . somethin i was lookin forward to coz its the only thing left to look forward to. sadly there wasnt much point in lookin forward to it . after an early start to the day , we left fer the ground and with some optimism looked at the pitch we were to play on. we didnt consider it too big. but all that optimism dissappeared when we actually took a few steps onto the pitch.

after a wait that seemed to talke an eternity we finaly got to play. and despite a bright start to the game we were soon two goals down , and despite our best efforts we were soon lookin out of the match, then came me only real contribution in the entire match . a corner . but with that miss ended our chance of an unlikely comeback.

then after a bloody and gruesome senior match we left to get back to skl where we were slightly only damged fer losin in the first round but after some comments with varyin levels of vice in them ive come home and started to blog . guess theres not much pint in cintinuin this pointless reminiscence of the day . so till tomo
see ya
still me

mondays baahhhhhhhhhh

2005-08-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

a very garfiels like statement eh? but yeh i hate mondays . this one was no different . if anything i hated it more. started at 3 30 am can u believe that 3 30!!!!! yeh thats only coz i had to go drop my mom at the airport . shes gone fer a press conference in coimbatore. can u belive that my mom ?? a press person . im totally zonked. anyway then reached skl and had football practice that went went horribly wrong fer some reason and didnt play at all like i expected myself to and thus was depressed as i walked into class at 925. but then the totally unbelievable happened, i got 15 in chemistry unit test . i was expectin 8 so u can probably imagine how much that shocked me. considerin i hadnt studied fer the test and also didnt copy im happy wit my marks, tho(as usual) i wish i could have got more. then followed the amazin period of time whre i ahd no idea wat i was doing. as someone once said staring pointlessly into space and also wrtin simultaneously. then came chem pracs , always have a blast there tho the teacher may not be the friendliest in teh world. then came lunch which fer once was pretty subdued, ate ate ate and then slept.

post lunch came math horror coz i hadnt done a bit of homework and like a certain nice of mine didnt get crucifies either. then another zonked out session with surprise phy test which i mucked up so bad i hated myself for it. then another practice session this time it didnt eevn start, bcoz of a certain incident with some of the locals which didnt end very pleasantly .thus football practice was scrapped the day before the match . but this allowed us to get one thing sorted out:our formation . lets see how well we can do tomorrow. at least we must try to perform beter than last year .

then started the quest to reach my football jersey. tis a loong story but since i got the time ill tell u about it, it all started on the 21st . i got my jersey for the first time and as is usual with these things it didnt fit. so i unasuningly gave it for alteration little did i kno that the the only alteration that would be the day which it was given to the tailor which was the 29th. anyway it got ready only today evenin so i had to go collect it after school which meant forunately or unfortuantely i had to miss tuition again. simple soundin dont it?? but as usual it got complex. by the time the car got to school to pick me up i might as well have just gone for tuition . but the bright point was that the altered jersey actaully fit. so by the time i got home it was seven . not much to do then so came and online and joined the in flux of jobless youth .

now as bed time approaches i must take thy leave .... will definitely write again tomo .
till then see ya

boredom

2005-07-31T07:10:00.000-07:00

why do i keep doing this??? why do i keep switching off in class??why cant i keep my mind from focussing on thinds that have absolutely no significance ? why do i not forget about eevryone else and think about myself for once?? why is it that i have to think of others comfort before i do or say anything?? why do i want to cry ?? why cant i?

answer to all of the above

because im me .

theres no other explanation im just a pathetic moron who' s not got an ambition to strive towards and zero inspiration. sadly theres noone else other than me who can change that . maybe letting all of this out will eb a good way to get rid of all thats buggin me . mayb. anyway till next time
i am me

joblessness

2005-07-31T02:09:00.000-07:00

hello all
this may be my very first blog but i may not do justice to wat anyone expects . i think we r all goin mad sittin in front of computers all the bloody day doin notihn except postin blogs or sittin online with pointless topics to discuss. wat evr happened to good old meetin ppl ot talkin on the phone mayb these things r just non existant to me who knos ?? hell this is my blog i can say wat i want cant i . anyway im typically busy at the moment sittin and downloadin crap as usual but this time its important crap . the champs league final goals and stuff. cool no??
yes anyway ill be bloggin later . so till then
au revoir
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